the controversy about study break

u know, i realise there's one insult which hurt me more than calling me a bitch. and that calling me a NERD. just bcos i score better than average grades doesnt mean i eat and sleep with my books. just bcos i prioritize studies doesnt mean i dun do anything else in my free time besides studying. just bcos i have better control in inhibiting my urges to play does not mean u can insult me. i can never forget how girls in my high school used to give me these insulting comments right smack in my face "oh my god Sel, u actually go out of school illegally?" or "oh my god sel, u also go out shopping after school?" like what the hell...just bcos i know my priorities in life does not make me a freaking studious no-life nerd. but i only get these from ppl who dun know me yet making all kinds of assumptions about me. people who dunno me deeper than the layer of clothes i put on. people who must make judgment of others and hold on tight to their judgment without making certain of the truth. people who know me well would say "u think sel study all the time? yeah right..." or "sel studying? haha u're kidding"



anyway, that was purely random. i received a similar insulting comment past few nights from someone who doesnt really know me, and received comments from 2 person who knows me well enough yesterday and today. this only shows u how shallow it is for people who judge a book by its cover, and hold on so tightly of the impression they're made. well, it might not hurt u to hold on to untrue impressions, but it sure hurts the person u're talking to when u're preassumptions were so obviously wrong, and so obviously insulting...



anyway, i just gotta live past this weekend and i'll be back into civilization! oh gosh, i hope i havent lost touch of my socialization skills. i've been cooped up in the house this entire week. ok, except monday, where i had lectorial, and except yesterday, which i went Sunway Pyramid. i've found out my most effective studying method. i need to have people around me to feel happy and alert, but i also cannot have people around me cos i get distracted so easily. so, the best way is to study in coffeehouse like Starbucks, where there are people around me to give me sufficient stimulation, but they're people i dont know therefore i wont be bothered to interact with them. the environment is comfortable, cosy, with chattering voices but not too loud. so why dont i just go Starbucks everyday, right? easy, bcos this month is DECEMBER! the month where i'll have holiday, where spending increase 3 folds, but allowance maintain the same! so i cant afford to spend at least rm15 every single day! *big sad sigh* doesnt money solve everything... >.< (for ppl who knows me well enough, they'll know that statement is so contradicting of my beliefs)



well, i've been to Starbucks twice this month, actually. once was last monday, after lectorial i went to mid valley to study while waiting for my bro to finish work. within that one hour i studied so so much! yesterday i went to Pyramid, supposed to shop a lil then study in the Starbucks in new wing, cos its nicely decorated in ORANGE! *hehe* when i got there, i was contemplating on calling Sharon, cos so lonely to shop alone. but then, i didnt call her, cos it was supposed to be QUICK shopping and then serious studying while im in Starbucks. so when i was done, i entered Starbucks...and suddenly i heard "Selena Ong!" i just had time to recognize Sharon behind the counter when another "Selena Ong!" was heard from my right. i turned, and i saw Patricia! Sharon's sister! lol...this is crazy...so coincident! just when i was contemplating on calling her! and such a lovely coincidence, bcos i not only got to meet these ppl whom i've not met for so long, i also got discounted Signature Hot Choc and Esprit discount voucher! mwehehehehe....

its been 10 days since i've heard darling's voice...aihs...another 7 days until i'll see him again. thank god for internet though...we get to chat and webcam every night. but its a pretty good timing for him to be away la...at least he's gone when im supposed to be studying hard, and he'll be back when im all free to play! omg omg...cant wait for my upcoming Langkawi trip!!!

ok i've accidentally deleted this entire post twice...im so not gonna risk typing for the 3rd time, so im gonna upload now! wanna go walk my doggie now, take care people!!!