F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P

damn...im feeling damn bad for sounding so persimistic and hopeless in my emo post. on top of my blog i've posted that: For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, And for everything you gained, you lose something else; It's about your outlook towards life, You can either REGRET or REJOICE. yes it is my outlook in life that matters, and i've always pride myself to be someone bright and optimistic. but that day...i said i wanna give up on our friendships. i am so hurt that my efforts have been disappointed that i will not put in anymore effort. although it was just an outburst which i will not have the heart to act on my words, i am glad i expressed them, because it is so touching to receive some responses:

Lai Cheng posted this in her blog:

"When a certain situation got out of hand or happens in its own way and u choose to let it happen, im sorry to say that u give in rather than save it. However bad something became, surely there's a way out. If u choose to believe that that something will happen in THAT way,u're choosing to let it happen. Note that, u CHOOSE. One should pratice optimism and adapt to changes quickly in order to mend it or at least try to save it rather than give up. Things aren't bad until u choose to see it that way. Not everything is within our control but the very least we can do is, mend it or find a way out. There are certain things that u can view with many angles. That depends on how u view the matter yourself."

~Hey gurl, i felt so ashame of myself after reading your post. yes your post definitely made me think twice. more than twice actually. you are right. it is my choice to let things happen this way. it is my choice to view that you all have moved on and removing me from your lives. im sorry i CHOOSE to let our friendship die. it was blurted out of anger...i wont break our friendship girl...love ya for such encouraging words!~

Nat said this:

"Girl, over time, old friendships will seem to fade. But how strong is it, is not measured by how often we meet up. If a friendship is truly strong, it will stand the test of time and somehow, in the years to come... we'll soon come to find who are those remaining in the circle and who left....... those that stayed on are the ones we should be thankful for, they're the ones with the stronger foundation of friendship.It is definitely hard now to tell who's sincere and who's not in making an effort to meet up. We're all so dispersed, geographically... socially. We're faced with so many other choices. So many other ppl. Its hard to prioritize because we all take for granted that the "longer frienships" will "understand"........Its sad. But we'll see. We can all say goodbye now. Look on the bright side, without goodbye, there won't be a HELLO =)... And when we all do say hello again... we'll know which friendship stood the test of time, we'll know which friendship are the ones thats true......For now, all we can do is to reminisce.You'll always find a friend in me, like how I found a friend in you =) "

~feeling even more ashame now. so shallow of me to measure frienship with number of times we meet. we've pulled through 2 years without meeting..i would say we've definitely survived the test of time!~

And Kel babe said this:

"looks like some of you (u know who u are out there) had been going thru pretty rough patches when it's towards the end of the year *sighs.. but i want you to know that none of you out there is alone : )) im here, im there (in the situation too) but i guess..it's how we would like to take things..personally or not but deep down time will always tell how strong friendships will ever last : )) so to my gurlies, emo is one thing...but being happy n optimistic is always more important heehaw..not easy i know but don't worry, you have me and i'll try to make your days.."

~i will always keep note that being optimistic is always more important than being emo. thanks babe for the support! muakz!~

thanks you girls...lol...guess you've given me the reassurance i was seeking for. ok it was damn mean of me to say goodbye as if i wanna totally break our friendship overnight. no dun worry, i definitely wont. just that i had very high expectations of how our comfort level should be. i gotta be more idealistic huh? i'll learn girls..i'll try! for sure i'll decrease emo-ness and continue being the cheerful Sel i would like myself to be =) love all you girls out there~ Soo Ann, Deniece, Yee Hua, Lai Cheng, Diane, Nat and Prabz~you girls have taught me so much about life and shared so many joyful days with me, cant believed i've actually thought of cutting you out of my life! muakz!