so hectic its crazy!

yo! long time to blog peepz!

damn...i cant believe its just 3rd week of the semester and im already burning midnight oils! last night stayed up til 2am doing assignment, then woke up at 5.30 cos got 8am class. since last week i've been getting very little sleep. and i've barely time to blog. i feel like a total nerd ok...i've barely watch tv too. gave Alex a shock today when i told him i forgot when i last watched tv...besides during dinner.

but u know what? i like being in nerd mode. i havent felt so productive in a long while! suddenly i feel like im being a good student again...so satisfying! last 2 semesters i was really bad...skipping classes every week if not every day. but this sem, i havent skipped a single class, and the best part is...*durm roll pls*...i stay awake, paid fulll attention, and take notes from beginning to end of EVERY CLASS! now thats what u call a uni student! now thats what a top scorer should behave. well, i am trying to imitate a top scorer...hopefully my grades will change into a top scorer's grades soon...

ooh...and being caught up in assignments is good!!! i think im losing weight! all those lazy weights i've put on over the holidays. having so much to do and so little time reduces the free time i have for food. plus the stress im constantly feeling plus lack of sleep reduces my appetite. wee!!! yay!!! i've another 11weeks to go...i wonder how many kg can i lose? ^O^

oh yes...there's a bad point though...pimples are breaking out again! just when i managed to clear those breakouts with my new skincare NuSkin, stress got them popping happily out again. and i dun have time to do my biweekly mask and scrub!!! oh well, who says i can have it all? weight or complexion...my choice...

well, lets get serious now. although im so caught up in quizzes, assignments, datelines, i still do have emotional moments. just dont have the time to write them out. well, once again i've been hit by the fact that there is almost no family that's perfect. i've always thought im so unlucky, i have a miserable home, if only bro like his bro, my dad like her dad, if if IF. but the olden saying "every family has their own problems" is so true. and u know what's the worst thing? because its a family thing, everybody have to keep to themselves. its just us Asian with this family reputation thing i guess. but yeah...everyone have to keep to themselves. so hard to find someone to confess to. which makes me appreciate Dear even more...i can give him all my trust...

something is haunting my mind now...something is gonna happen in my very near future and im trying so hard not to think about it. the few times i allowed my mind to ponder on it for more than 5 mins, i ended up in tears. again im glad i've assignments and college to bury myself into. well, this week has came and almost end! one week flew by already! perhaps time will really pass by fast...perhaps it wont be torturous for too long...

anyways, back to reality, Dear is away in Kuantan now. sleeping in a hotel, in fact. he's away for business trip...having to supervise the installation of some parts his company sold. thank god its still in Malaysia...thank god for maxis one-rate within M'sia...thank god he's coming back tmr. but then again, if kuantan trip ends soon, meaning the other trip is looming closer...

urgh! dont think! go to bed girl!!!

nitez
-sel-