assignment period again

hey hey,

oh gosh, its been a crazily busy week last week, and following weeks will only be getting usier and busier. assignments are all due within the same time when the semester is coming to an end. most of my assignments are group work. i dunno if its a good thing or bad thing. one, its so hard to cooperate with group members. so hard to find a meeting day that everyone is free, to begin with. then, so many different opinions and individual needs that needs to take into consideration. everybody has different priorities. mine is to forget everything else but to focus on the task at hand when my stress level soars high. some gets distracted or restless easily. some not in the mood to continue contributing when majority's opinion is contrasting to their opinion. ok, im just generalizing here from many previous past experiences. pls dun take any of these critisms personally. anyway, it definitely is a change from the previous individual assignment. at least i can share out the stress. and also can share out the amount of research to do. oh i so need to stop talking about assignment right now. i can feel my stress and guilt level increasing again....

on Friday, nat, deniece and i went to visit Praba's dad in Gleneagle's. i see her dad once a year before she left for India. although he doesnt recognize me personally, i've met him before, and he's my bestie's dad. it was painful to see him so frail, stick-thin, and suffering so badly. both his kidneys have failed, and he could not get transplant or dialysis. it was just heartbreaking, knowing doctors have given up, and actually persuaded the family members to give up. once again, Praba amazed me in the strength and toughness she possess. she looked sad and afraid, but she put up a very strong face and handled the situation calmly. she spoke to her dad so lovingly and normally...i can only understand part of her fear and pain inside...

at 2am yesterday, i was awaken by a phone call. Praba called...to say that her dad couldnt make it. he passed away at midnight. Dear God, may he rest in peace. may he be placed in a better place now, a place with no pain, no suffering. Praba seemed to be in a state of shock still. tmr a few of us will be going to pay her dad our last respect. seeing death is painful enough, what more being so closely related to the person who passed away? Praba needs support...no matter how much assignments are piling up, she needs as much support as she can get...and she's higher in my priority list

it hasnt been a very good week for everyone else too. LC got her result, and apparently it wasnt what she had expected. devastated might be an understatement here. found out that Deniece will be pursuing dentistry in India, and leaving end of this month. Soo Ann is trying to get into dentistry in India too, but still in uncertainty. i bet Yee Hua would want very badly to be able to physically show her support to Praba, but she's all the way in Australlia. its times of crisis that brings us all closer than ever...and again prove to me that our friendship have definitely survived the test of time and distance

today i went to college for replacement class. yes, its a Saturday, and i had class from 9 til 11.30am. thankfully lecturer only taught for 2 1/2 hrs instead than supposedly 4hrs. then met Nat and Dan for group discussion. it wasnt a productive discussion at all...ended pretty quick, and we left for Curve. i wasnt feeling very good today. in a horribly bad mood. i apologize to Raymond for snapping at him, but it also serves as a warning to not disturb me when i've warned u that i wasnt in a good mood...

anyway, everything's fine now. better, perhaps. nothing beats plain old honesty. alrightey, bedtime now, got a emotionally exhausting funeral to attend tmr. nitez ppl...