better than last night

holla holla peeple...

3 down, 2 to go...

sigh...another horrible night last night. slept at 3am, woke up at 5am, yet not able to finish studying for Child Development..

guess what smart ol' me did?

i had whole of tuesday (yesterday) free to finish reading half of entire textbook. i took my time reading since morning, initially thinking of reading from front to back, systematically, like how i ALWAYS do... *yeah right* but then when i reached this Cognitive Development of Early Childhood...saw the subtitile for Piaget's dunno what operational stage...then *flip flip* and saw the OMG thickness of this chapter. so fine...i tot, hey i'll just read the back few chapters quickly, then come back to this 2 chapters n read intensively, bcos it'll be tested in essay section. ok...so fine...i skipped 2 out of the 3 chapters coming out for essay...

when i finished reading the other chapters coming out in MCQ, it was already 1am. meaning, i've spent the entire morning to night, reading slowly, eating, watching America's Next Top Model, and reading again...so needless to say...i brought intense stress to myself late at night. sped thru the chapters i intended to read INTENSIVELY with eyes half opened. by 3am, i had half a chapter left, but i tot, enough is enough, so went to bed. lol i slept same time as Darling, who is 4hrs behind Malaysian time...

with my exam stress, add on with how much i miss Dear, it was just such a horrible horrible feeling. on the brink of depression...luckily managed to chat with Dear for one precious hour. i cant believe how attached and dependent i had grown. used to pride myself for being independent. in fact, i used to think i was unable to let myself be too intimate with anyone else. well, Darling proved all those wrong. or perhaps it was him who had changed me. ironically, now i feel afraid that i am too dependent i might not be capable of being strong when im supposed to. sigh...life is full of irony, dun u think?

anyway, back to exam stress...next morning woke up at 5am to cont studying, but sigh...accomplished almost nothing. so went to college, and *PHEW~!* paper wasnt that bad! ooh...i lurve Pn Fatimah and her essay questions!

although for the past few nights i had barely sleep more than 3hrs, i am still not too worn out. today, i tot i would have crashed halfway thru exam, but i was all perked up. even had energy lunching n laughing with the gang. ooh...actually had appetite to makan nasi!!! im beginning to believe mom that the supplements im taking does increase energy level. she said it increase metabolism rate, hence generating more energy for bodily functions. but the main use of this supplement is as anti-oxidant. ppl, anyone interested to try LifePak supplement???

tmr morning i've got Asian Biz paper at 8am...and im just halfway through. thank god Mr. Sidhu told us which chapter only gotta read textbook. reduce so much stress! and tmr after exam im gonna collect my prize from CLEO office!! woo hoo...winning prize for the 3rd time ady!! ^o^

back to studies now, with my mind and heart missing Dear and wondering how he's coping in India...
-sel-