stressors all at once

hey peeps...

well, its a stressful week, most of my friends will also complain bout that cos finals just started today. but im in even lower mood to study, cos my main motivation force is out of the country, almost unreachable unless im like filthy rich to make calls for rm10 per min...

darling left for Dubai yesterday...and then he'll go India, and he'll be away for 3weeks. that means he left the day before my exam, and returns 2days before my new semester starts. if it wasnt at such wrong timing i could have see him off at the airport. if the timing wasnt so off i wouldnt have felt so alone last night. if the timing was better, i might have been able to get more rest last night. if i hadnt been so attached to him, i might have been able to focus more while cramming last night...

but yeah, it was horrible having to wait so many freaking hours until he smsed me saying he finally touched down in Dubai. but in my downest moment last night, i had his mom's company. she smsed me, and said she could understand how im feeling as she had went thru the same last time. it really feels so warm knowing that she is appreciative of the love and attachment Dear and i share, rather than dismissing us as overly affectionate or making too big fuss over puppy love.

i've been reading nonstop on sat and sun...didnt even have mood to eat a proper meal. had sandwich for dinner on sat, had instant meehoon for lunch on sun. so last night, i decided enough was enough, so went out for dinner with neighbors. i was glad for the human contact and socializing, but it felt weird eating with Dear's mom and bro, but not next to him...

anyway, that was last night. slept at 3+, woke up at 6am, dragged myself to college for exam. well, i didnt feel as zombified as i did last 2 weeks, cos i realized exam left me pumping with adrenaline! abnormal psych aint so good...but hey, i did my best. not gonna think back n worry bout it. never do that.

ooh...something happened today. ok, well, usually i have to make a u-turn to get past the guardhouse n out of my housing area. so this morning, after my u-turn, i realised there was a cat lying on the spot my car was parked. it meant the cat was under my tire. i assumed it was asleep under the car. except that i started engine n drove off, yet it lay unmoved. i was so so afraid i had gone over it when i drove off, but logically, all cats would have scrammed as soon as the engine starts. i thought about the cat throughout the day...really praying hard i wont see it at the same spot when i get home.

so....when i got home, PHEW~!!! it wasnt there!!! alright, so my worries are over. it was just too deeply in sleep. no biggie, human pun like that sometimes, right? i walked over to aunt annie's house to collect some courier document, then on my walk home, i said Hi to aunt kim, who seemed to be doing gardening with a hoe. then she asked me a question...which made me stop. she asked if i saw a white cat this morning. oh man...guess what??? it was her cat...she was digging a grave for her cat. OMG~!!! i panic gila!!! tot i really did went over n killed her cat!!! and the owner managed to trace down its killer! but then she explained that it must have died earlier, bcos there were no blood nor spilling intestine. instead, there was a huge black spot on one side of its tummy, meaning it should have been hit by very big impact.

oh gosh, poor cat, it wasn't any pariah breed, and its still a kitten! only 6months old! who was so cruel to hit and run?! the poor cat must have been suffering, being knocked, then crawled its way under the car, where it died a painful and lonely death. omg...may Milky rest in peace...

and u know, if it was a dog, i would really had burst into tears....

lexter, i love you so much, even though u are currently hunting down my hamsters. Humpty n Dumpty are not the usual mouse and rats u like to hunt darling...pls...my hammies are friends! stop sniffing n whining next to their cage, bcos i will not let u get your paws on them!!! oh btw, have i mentioned that i reveived two hamsters, which i named Humpty and Dumpty, as my birthday present from mel, kel, nat, dan, jon, hua fu and raymond? thank u guys!!! i LURVE my birthday gift!!! ^o^

alright, im gonna study Child Development while waiting for Darling to come online. thank god for global roaming and internet!!!