im still alive...

hey there ppl,

yesh...im still alive, although been MIA from dearest bloggie for more than a week. my reasons? besides the point that i barely have sufficient time to digest my dinner properly before going to bed and waking up to an endless cycle of work again, i also refuse to look at anymore pc or monitor when im at home. honestly, 10hrs of endless staring at monitor is more than enough to fulfill my internet cravings. in fact, i really do think i need to go to the optician soon. somehow i feel as if my eyes power had increased at least 100. not like 600 isnt high enough...omg....i dun wanna touch 1000!!!!!!!! *mouth gaping wide in the utmost terrified look*

anyway, timetable's out!!! yesh....to all B.Psych students who were fooled to believe it'll be out tmr (like me), it was out this morning. good thing i put my msn status to "Away" whole day today...so Mel n Nat could reach me, and i could quickly print me timetable in office! stupid color laser printer got jam since yesterday...otherwise i would have printed a nice, large, colorful timetable for myself! *oops!* am i supposed to announce my misuse of office resources? *sheepish grin*

wow...looking at my new semester timetable, i cant believe just 2 months ago i was complaining about 3hrs of continuous lecture! compared to 9hrs of continuous concentration, 3hrs is SAP SAP SUI!!! *fuh*

i dunno why, but i exceptionally like my new schedule. and i especially long for college life again. this time, with a new vow to play even more after class *oops....aint a very good resolution huh?* but gosh, being at work 5days a week, one day of the weekend to recuperate, and 1 day of the weekend to go dating, craving for more spontanous yamcha n gossip sessions aint too much to ask right?

oh sigh....gossip sessions wont be the same anymore. Kel has spread her wings and flew off this morning. really really wish i could have seen her off at the airport. she went to HK with her family, then she'll be going to Uni of Wisconsin to pursue 3rd yr of Psychology. she'll be there at least 2yrs, and maybe longer, or possibly permanently there, should she find a job she likes after graduation. oh well, its gonna be a whole new exciting life journey for her, so all my wishes for the girl who is one step closer to fulfilling her dreams.

today i read roberta's blog, and comparing her description of her office with mine, lol, i really cannot complain bout my company. but well, there are pros and cons in working with big firms i guess. i have the fancy fingerscan entry, pantry with fridge and microwave and drink machine, stocked with full set of cutleries, computer with pretty relax security in terms of websites firewall, as well as low restrictions on working hours. but all these makes me realise that no matter how wonderful the facilities are, as long as im not doing something im passionate about, i will never be enthusiastic bout work, i will always dread waking up in the mornings to get dressed in yet another set of dull attire, i will always be so anticipating for the clock to touch 6pm, i will always feel extremely worned out when i get back. the more i dread my work, the more i imagine my dream job in future. i still havent really fix on one particular job....but i feel a sense of hope imagining myself out there, helping children, counseling ppl with problems, providing shelter to stray animals, helping ppl in prisons or by the street or with mental disabilities....wow....

but of cos, everytime i get onto that "dream job" path, i will stop myself before i get too absorbed, too emotionally involved. well well well....dun come knocking my head and telling me im being too idealistic, because i am aware that those are not logical ful-time career i.e. not possible to feed myself alive to help others. well, unless i marry a super wealthy husband, who also loves social work! ^o^

yippie! next friday is my last day of work! *jumps up and down on my bed with glee* but also the day results will be released! *poke cheeks with both fingers and look down solemnly* i've been such good girl, grounding myself the entire semester...will my results improve tremendously or will it maintain the same? which option would i prefer? no.....im not looking forward to tremendous improvement....it aint a good thing if u understand my situation...

alrightey, time to hit the sack again. nitez peepz!

p/s: Yee Hua, i hope i've proved my point, that working is a damn good excuse!!!