last few chances to break the rules

hey hey,

surprised to see me blogging at this time? hehe yeppie am still in office, so am blogging from my work corner right now. previously i dared not blog bcos security is very tight in this company. apparently the American HQ is observing every activity on my pc. several times i've had oversea technical support team taking remote access of my pc, so im pretty convinced of their technology. but well, im not gonna be publishing their P&C info here, so i have nothing much to worry.

well, its my last 3 days working in Towers Perrin Malaysia. had been an amazingly rich experience, priceless corporate working experience i can only imagine how it would feel like while in uni. my 6weeks here made me ponder about my future more seriously than i had ever did. when planning my education course and possible career opportunities in college, it all seems so easy. finish degree, work in corporate sector few yrs, gain working experience as well as save some money, then further Masters degree oversea, and return as qualified psychologist. hmmm, ok not yet being called a Dr Ong, but well, more qualified than a general Psych degree holder.

i only think to that extend, but when asked to write more in-depth bout the specific area of work i wanna pursue after graduation, i dun have an exact vision in mind. i tot ok, since the most probable route is to join the corporate world, i dun mind going into HR or PR or anything related to dealing with ppl/employees. naively i thought, i'll still deal with ppl, i wont divert too far from my interest!!!

thats when TP changed my mentality. i dun deal with any individuals at all, no application of psych whatsoever. ok, yes we do deal with ppl, thats why we're a Human Resource consultancy firm, but not those one-to-one i would love. and going thru 6 weeks of doing something totally unrelated to my passion made me realised that i have to be very careful with the very first proper job i put my foot in.

so im thinking harder now bout which field im truly passionate in. the words "social work" keeps popping up in my mind, bcos thats where i get true satisfaction, of helping ppl or animals and seeing immediate result from my effort. but its also not realistic, so i've gotta think of an alternative way to pursue my dreams yet able to support myself

i realise i've seen so little of the outside world, so sheltered in my protected life to know what other career possibilities there are out there, and the endless opportunities i have to fulfill my passion.

i dun wanna wait til i graduate only realise that i dunno whats my next step. i wanna start planning my future already...