lonesome 2 weeks had began

heyz heyz...

remember there was something i dreaded in my near future? well, that near future was last night. im officially a lonesome loner for the next 2 weeks. why? *long pause to create suspense* ............................................................................................................................................... DEAR WENT TO CHINA FOR BUSINESS/FAMILY VACATION!!!!!!!

the past week i really felt so down. i feel like he was gonna abandon me all helpless and alone. i really felt like life has lost all its brightness once he leaves. i thought i will not be able to get in touch with him at all for entire 15days!

but well, it wasnt so bad. i realised i was being very selfish when i kept to myself and appeared so distant. i thought he would see it as a sign that i really really gonna miss him and that he has a very important place in my heart. but that was childish...cos instead he felt horrible, he was confused. he had to fake his enthusiasm and avoided talking about china trip. he felt like i was pushing him away. basically things got really strained between us. and that caused me to feel even sadder. its bad enough to not see him for 2 weeks...its even worse if he leaves when we're both not feeling too good about each other. well, luckily something (i dunno what) but something kicked some sense into me. i think it was that horrible jam on FT rehearsal day...i think alot when im on the road...so i realised that i was such unsupportive gf. lolz...kiddie too. so in the end we worked things out. i told him i'll miss him, but i want him to have a good time there. go gain experience and amaze the supplier with his skills. show him that he'll do a good job like his dad although he has less experience.

last night mom showed her supportiveness again by going to the airport with me. i got to see Dear off in the airport! but i felt so bad after that...mom had to wake up early for work today, yet we came back from airport by 1am. she had less that 4hrs of sleep! i felt really touched...so grateful i said thank you to her. words were the least i could do to show her how much i appreciate her support...

it wasnt so bad. i had thought i'll be moody and tired knowing that im all alone. but Dear had been sending lots of smses...he feels so near me! last time when he went Dubai for 4days his phone bill soared like mad. this time 2weeks wei...even if he can afford it, its not worth wasting money like that!

today i went to Katsu Autism, Dyslexia and Learning Disability Centre for Abnormal Psych and Child Development community service assignment. went with Daniel, Nat, Mel and Dita. we were given the address as somewhere along Jln Puchong, but end up it was in PJ. luckily was still along Old Klang Road. its gonna be fun helping out for the next 2ohrs...the founder was really experienced, although she has no Psychology background. she learnt all through observation, research from internet and books. managed to find several successful teaching programs thru trial-and-error. and she told us there are certain principles of hers we should follow:

1. dont tell her or the children's parents that the children are ok and that they'll do fine without coming to this centre, because THEY ARE NOT OK.

2. dont criticise her centre...whether its her teaching style or the setting or her students and teachers, because we will only be there for 20hrs. "How dare you judge me" was her exact words

3. never ever say her effort with the children are slowing down their learning progress, because IT IS NOT. she experienced several cases where after perseverance of one whole year, some children can finally read, so she wont give up hope no matter what

she's a really nice lady, just firm and has strong principles. i only write about her restrictions doesnt mean she's all negative.

then went to Mid Valley with Nat and Dan...and met YH there! omg...we hugged and was squealing out of shock and excitement that ppl around us were staring weirdly. look what? bet they're jealous that nobody missed them that much to hug and squeal in public *bluek!*

tmr i'll be watching 3movies in a day....yes movie marathon...but a compulsory one. not even movies of my choice. hehe its Psychology Movie Festival that goes on every semester. i like it, but will enjoy it even more if i can watch movies for entertainment sake instead of education sake. what do i mean? well, it's quite potong stim to watch a comedy but not able to laugh because i have to be analyzing the main actor's behavior. after the whole thing, i'll have to write report. total fun-spoiler dun u think?

alright, time for dinner. update y'all soon!

missing darling,
-sel-