psycho driver

bloody hell, today was the first time i met with a road bully! i've heard stories bout unreasonable CRAZY drivers on the road, but today i had a personal encounter with one!

i was on my way to gym after college. was stuck in a jam behind Mint Hotel, near the Selangor Turf Club. there's this white Wira in front of me who seemed like he wasnt focusing at all. it wasnt too bad a jam...cars were inching slowly. typically in a jam, one would try to move as much as possible. this white Wira somehow took several mins to move after the car in front of him had moved. when i first got behind him, i actually thought he had stopped by the side of the road and fell asleep cos he really was driving very near the curb of the road. he was driving so close to the curb that both his left tyres actually went into the drain. it was a pretty shallow and dry drain, but he seemed oblivious to it. drove with half his car inside the drain for few mins before driving a little more center. anyway, after some time, i got damn frustrated and fed-up with this fella. he was pissing me off! he either refuse to move when cars in front of his had moved, or he moved too close he actually "touched" the van in front of him. he acted as if that was normal! after that, he drove very very close to the left curb again. i was damn bengang i overtook him. i had plenty of place to do that, despite the fact that it was jam, and it was a one-lane road.

damn...as soon as i did that, he suddenly became very alert. you cant guess what he did next. he rammed right into my car! was accelerating like some angry aggressive driver! he is MAD!!!!!! my entire car jerked forward, and i screamed. OMG!!! HE IS CRAZY!!! then you know what? he got down from his car! i saw him from my rearview mirror...he got out in a very menacing way. he actually wanna confront me! damn bloody shit! i was so scared. immediately i made sure my doors were locked. but i was stuck! the cars weren't moving, and there was no way i can escape! the van in front of me inched forward, so i moved along too. he saw me driving off, so he got back into his car. damn...i was so afraid he would come after me and break my windows. i was so afraid he would continue to ram into my butt. i was afraid he would tail after me. my fingers were shaking horribly as i called Dear. just kept wishing he would answer me ASAP. just wished i wasnt alone...

Dear's first reaction was to tell me to stay put, he will come find me immediately. but that time i was nearing the turn off onto the main road. i could easily get away from him. and he didnt seem to initiate anymore aggresive actions. so Dear calmed me down, and told me to drive to the nearest police station. in case he followed me, at least i will be in a safe place. so i did that. i lost him on my way to the station but i managed to take down his number plate.

Dear was with me all the way...thank God i could lean on him. again he was there for me in my most vulnerable time. first person i wanna call was him. first person i think of whenever i feel scared is him. i trust noone more than him. sigh...thank God he was there. he had work to do but he put me first. he was willing to drop all his work and come find me if i hadnt told him everything's fine. i cant explain how grateful i am for him. i cant explain how much he is willing to sacrifice for me. i cant explain how touched i am for his level of concern and commitment. i cant explain how thankful i am to have him in my life.

but sigh...as expected...someone thinks the accident was my fault. he thinks im acting smart by overtaking that car. he ridiculed me for trying to decide for that man. in times when i needed support most, he still is more concern about putting the blame than to be worried bout me. no wonder i dunno how to accept and love myself til today...

i can finally see clearly now. i will love myself although you dont accept me.
-sel-