exam later

wassup ppl?!?!?!

its my last paper today...

leaving house at 12pm, exam at 2pm, finish at 4pm, then I'M A FREE BIRD!!!

tonight going out for after-exam-usual-tradition dinner. and of cos, tradition also includes darling joining me and my frens!!! WOWIE!!!

poor dear just came back from India yesterday. he left on tuesday, with all those waiting and transit, took him bout 10hrs before he reached Mumbai. by then it was night, but since they're 2.5hrs behind, he had extra 2.5hrs to do work, compared to malaysian time... =.="

next day he had meeting with Big Client. discussion, presentation, lunch, talk talk talk. then....one step closer to closing the deal, one step closer to making big $$$! congrats darling!!!

that night after meeting went back to airport. and poor Dear and Uncle Roger waited in the airport for 8hrs!!! my gosh, im someone who cant bear to sit at the same place so such long time, what more being in an airport, a place where i always end up getting headache. after such a long, long time, he touched down almost 1pm the following day....

so yes! darling's back again! and we're going out tonight! *wee~!*

this sunday we'll be flying together, but its not a trip im looking forward at all. in fact, im having so much fear. if i was given the chance to pull out, i actually might. oh well, there are 2 possible outcomes from this upcoming cambodia trip. either everybody gets nasty, directly express their dislike, and travel separately although living and flying together, or while working on a the same (remember the Robber's Cave experiment and the Subordinate Goal effect?) they might actually overcome dislikes and form cooperation...

so im just gonna go there, act neutral, and hope for the positive outcome. when everyone else is in negative state of arousal and easily interpret subtle cues as offensive, they will need me, the neutral and calm party, to help sort things out. at least, just offer the simpler solution than make things complicated. u know how small matters get out of hand when ppl are emotional. so yeah...hope for the best for everybody while giving up my own desire for a romantic, peaceful holiday...

alright, back to studying. ok, back to rereading for my 3rd time. lol sometimes i really wanna stop myself from working so hard...bcos the thought of scoring better than last sem really scare me...i really dun want my parents to tell me "i told you already, u're slacking bcos u were going out too much. next sem onwards u better stay home like this sem too" omg....that isnt a very pleasant thought at all! u might as well put me in prison!!!!!!!

hmmmm....ok ok, do my best for myself, dun assume so negatively of my parents, just focus day by day for now. these are words i've been telling myself alot lately, and its helping! im staying optimistic for now!!! ^o^ update u all on my dinner soon!!!