recycling virus

omg...im gonna fall sick...AGAIN!!! and finals is next week! and Dear is sick too. he had diarrhoea yesterday morning. then he was having headache the entire day. by night time he was feverish. and he went to work at 6am this morning! got me so worried...but no choice, he had to present his model to bosses, and he had some last minute correction before presentation. well, at least his headache and fever didnt persist today. just so glad his condition got better instead of worse

yesterday morning was supposed to go marketing with mommy, but she wanna stop by in Aunt Joice's house to ajak her marketing. im more than happy to make a detour to Dear's house, cos i was very worried when he told me he woke up with bad diarrhoea. how can he bathe Shadow (his adorable Golden Retriever), leave for work and jon his family in furniture mall when he's all weak? well after both our moms discussed, in the end, instead of going marketing together, we agreed to go for Hush Puppies warehouse sale in the afternoon. i wasnt that enthusiastic bout going for this stock clearance cos Dear wouldnt be around anyway...he had to work...or so i thought. in the end, he decided to push work, and join us for shopping! i was torn between feeling happy that i'll be going out with Darling, and also worried that he has to wake up so early today. well, he had decided...he said he knows his priorities, so i will respect his decision, and savor the time we can spend together ^o^

something unexpected happened at the warehouse. Ivan's parents were there...and they were right behind me! i was shocked when Adrian pointed them out. i turned and saw Aunty Lynn and Uncle David right behind me! i felt my heart was beginning to beat real fast. it beat even faster when i saw both his brothers standing at the entrance. although everyone was pushing and Dear was talking to me, i know i was distracted. i kept glancing at the entrance to look for Ivan. i feel so stupid...i dunno why i got so anxious! he shouldnt have such effect on me! but Nat said its a normal reaction. after all, we didnt end things well. just sorta left things hanging and went separate ways. with our current state of confusion, i should be anxious on how i should treat him if i do bump into him. she was partially right. another part of me desperately want to meet him and prove to him that im much happier now. show him that i made the right decision. and maybe thank him for unappreciating me so that i can find the current joy of my life. ok i wont deny that i still habor anger towards him. although time has gradually reduced my dislike and anger, but yes, i can still get very worked up if i get into discussion about him. i've always pride myself for not holding grudges for long, but this is one grudge which i held for many months, and dunno how many more months to come...

oh well, i didnt see him at all. i jokingly told my girls that perhaps he saw me first and went to hide. lol. that wouldnt be something surprising. anyway, his family left, and we continue shopping. it wasnt a very fruitful shopping trip. initially we all thought it was Hush Puppies SHOE clearance, so we only have shoes in mind. when we got there, we found out that only Hush Puppies APPARELS were sold. the closest thing to shoes were socks =.=" but mom bought quite alot anyway. both brothers got a comforter set. i had few tops and erm...something cute. we got so frustrated with the crowd pushing and stuffy air, so quickly paid and left. quite sad to say goodbye to Dear so soon...but it was ok...our families met again for dinner! ^_^

today i went to college and attended Managemen alone. Kel, Mel, Hua Fu and Sek Hee ponteng! lol...naw...Pn Norzan told last week that this week she wont be teaching anymore. it'll just be revision and consultation period. i went early despite waking up with a pounding head. dunno why i felt so semangated to study. went to class, got lots of tips for exam, then went to library to study. and boy, did i study. usually i feel sleepy in the library after half an hour. but today, i was copying notes and comparing textbooks for more than 2hrs! then went to Rotiman for lunch with Kel, Mel, Nat and Jon Sern.

we went for PSY102, and i was so happy to find out that class will be ending at 2pm! wee!!! that means i can go home and find darling! he said he will be taking half day off, meaning he'll leave office by 12.45pm. i was so worried the whole day that i cant wait to go over and take care of him. i just wanna be there by his side as he eats and rest. i wouldnt mind holding onto his hands as he sleeps for hours. i even asked Kel and Nat to teach me how to cook porridge for him. but in the end, Dear was held back at work and only left office at 3pm. i got home and was waiting for him. i didnt have to cook cos his mom already did. so he picked me and we went to his house. he looked ok! he felt ok! wowie! yay! so we both had scallop porridge (exactly what Kel was teaching me to cook) and looked at his baby photos. omg..he was...and is...so adorable! his face didnt change much. my heart soften at the sight of vulnerable Darling with such loving family. his mom told me lots of stories too. sigh...now i know how he grew up to be the sweet guy he is today...

oh yeah! to all Jerry Yan's fans, do you know that he's currently in Malaysia? he reached today, and i will be meeting him tomorrow!!! i will be helping out in Jerry Yan's press conference tomorrow!!! i might be able to take picture with him too!!! ^o^ my loyalty still goes to Ken Zhu, but who will deny the opportunity to meet a gorgeous guy? i can overlook the fact that he cant sing!! >.<>

-sel-