WEDNESDAY 15th November 9.58pm

mwehehe...i love McD's big Fish Platter! ok to be more specific, i love McD fishy platter plate with me Darling in my housey! ^_^ yesterday had breakfast with darling....what a wonderful way to start my day...

after Dear went off to work, i did a little assignment, then went gymming! initially targeted to keep up my latest 700 calories, then felt a little side stitch (guess i forgot that my BIG BREAKFAST was taken 2 hrs ago) so decrease my target to 500. but in the end, i burnt only 400 calories as i had to rush home. Ervin and i supposed to meet mom in Darby Park at 2pm to do facial scan. it was this hi-tech machine which took close up picture of our face, then analyse through the computer on skin texture, pores, uv spots, wrinkles, etc. according to my result, out of 100 Asian girls who are same age as me, i am better than 99 of them in terms of wrinkles, evenness and pores. at that time i can choose to regard to machine as inaccurate and continue believing i have pizza face, or feel good that my results are way, way better than mom's and ervin's. lolz, obviously i choose to be proud of my own skin!

yesterday was basically a FACE DAY, cos after doing complexion analysis in Nu Skin, we went to this dermatologist in Jalan Imbi. remember i said i had Panau ("Hon Pan") on my cheeks? it was itching horribly, so went back to Dr Ting, who i consulted before 2yrs ago on the same problem. well, like the previous case, he said it wasnt panau, it's allergy. but he couldnt pinpoint exact cause of allergy. could be skincare product, cosmetic, my pillow case, just any chemical that have contact with my skin. anyway, since i am getting treatment, i got medication for my sudden pimple outbreak too >.<>

it was horrible driving a manual in after-office jam. both feet were numb with the constant clutch-accelerator-brake routine. i was having headache earlier on, but took an ActivFast ady. no thanks to the traffic and dad's stressful remarks all the way home, my ActivFast effects wore off pretty quickly. i hate to end my day with a pounding head, but seems like i get it pretty often

this morning went for 8am class as usual, left early as usual, and went lunch as usual. the only unusual part is us going Lucky Garden coffeeshop instead of lunch around college. after lunch we went Bangsar Village to kill time. and poor Hua Fu and Sek Hee...they had to patiently walk with us girls and bear with our oohs and aahs at every small item. they're definitely gonna consider twice before going for lunch with us girls next time >.<

today i helped out in CFP for 4hrs man...FOUR LONG HOURS! all scholars have to commit 4hrs weekly to help out in department, so i thought it should be fun. who knows i spent 4hrs reading 3 old newspaper =.=" for someone who doesnt read newspaper at all, this is a big achievement ok! but ok la, i have to be honest. at least 1.5hrs were spent talking on the phone with Dear, sms-ing friends bout Penang trip and rereading old messages from Darling. by the end of 2hrs, i looked zombified cos Cindy asked if im ok. by 4pm when signing out Cindy asked again if im feeling ok cos i looked pale. i blame it on the air con...it was freaking cold! and it was blowing stronger and stronger as it rained heavier outside...like it wanna compete who can produce cooler air... =.="

i was in very bad shape after 4hours of no human contact and monotonous work. and Dear got the worse taste of my bad mood cos i was nasty and incosiderate when talking to him on the phone. when i drove home i was in a daze and nodded off several times. i know its dangerous to drive when u're sleepy, but i find pulling over by the road side even more dangerous. what if i fell asleep and someone break my window, rob and kidnap me? what if i left the air con on, fell asleep, and suffocate myself with toxic? what if another car lost control and bang into me? bottom line is, i feel very insecure being alone and stationary in a public area. so i rushed home asap...and crawled into bed as soon as i got home...

the nap didnt change my mood. Dear got another worse round of grouchy girlfriend when i spoke to him after i woke up. dunno if i can blame it on hormonal moodswing or fatigue or just-wake-up mood. but i know im feeling very bad now for hurting Dear. i cant always assume he will always understand and tolerate my irritability. its something i have to learn to control...

ok, my eyes are bloodshot and swollen now. brain still fuzzy. didnt touch any assignment or revision at all today. darn...assignment is due this fri wei...and exam on sat...

-sel-