happiness

why do people feel miserable, and continuously question why happiness is so hard to obtain? thats bcos they are still chasing perfectionism, which in fact, really is just a synonym of depression.

someone reminded me today, that it takes alot more energy and effort to be angry and revengeful towards people who somehow does not meet our expectations. but yet, being angry, shouting and exploding is what we naturally urge to do when we feel injustice

as i continued talking, i realised how different i can view things once i accept, let go and move on. i no longer expect any signs of appreciation, or hope that some people will one day be able to see that i do little things to please them, or wish they could tell me why they hate me. i just sincerely perform minor tasks for them, out of my own desire, and not even remembering what i did so that i will not be calculative. its been so many years but i've finally been able to find my peace...

i remember very clearly that not too long ago, i felt that my life sucks, and my life is most unfair compared to everyone else, and that noone will ever understand the difficulty i experience. but i was so engrossed with my own emotions that i magnified my importance. now i found out, that left and right nobody is having a perfect life. people around me are not going through easy times either.

life isnt easy, and problems will never go away til the day we die. but they'll only be problems if u allow them to be so. for me, i am trying to see things differently now. i was told the secret to happiness one year ago, but i did not listen, i refused to open my mind and accept the possibility, i even labeled the person as incapable, but now, i am finally able to do so. which is to ACCEPT. sounds easy, but its damn hellava task...

u know u're still searching for perfection when u question why things arent the way they should be. SHOULD? who decides that? what standard are u comparing to? how are things like when they're what they should be? yes...it boils down to the IDEAL state...the PERFECT situation...the DEPRESSION causer...bcos there really is no such thing as perfection...