i read FEMALE magazine today...in an interview with Sharon Stone, she said that one can find happiness when they can dispose off the search for perfection...
and that is so true...
how many times have i been disappointed because things were far from my ideal expectations?
i feel so much lighter just telling myself that as long as i can accept it, nothing else matters. kel said that happiness comes from within myself...im using that phrase as my personal motivator now...
u know, instead of thinking that i have so much more to go through, suddenly i view things from another perspective, and i thought...hey, its just another year, and things will not be the same anymore! last year he said he wouldnt mind waiting 2yrs...well well well...one year of waiting has come and gone, leaving us with just another year. it will be just another blink of an eye til that 2 yrs end...
i got so excited thinking of what awaits me after this. i was so excited that i immediately went to search for scholarship to pursue Masters in UK. it would feel so good to be able to leave here asap...haha if only i can get a full scholarship to finish my 3rd year...
but nvm, one year only mar. will fly by so fast i will be hoping for more time to prepare myself *hehehe*
sometimes i laugh back thinking of the restrictions i face now are similar to what they once faced too. i bet now they understand why they were imposed such restrictions 30 yrs ago. and maybe i will only be able to understand why im in my current situation 30yrs down the road
history repeats itself, although they probably once vow to never let it repeat. i've been telling myself i wont let it repeat too. lets hope i would be more successful in keeping my vow, rather than going against my own words and experience 180degree change of attitude
as of now, im gonna focus on happiness from within!!! woohoo~ one more year, ONE MORE YEAR!!! ok la..one and a half year... *sheepish grin*
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