the last week had been a horrible period i was facing. but to my girls who were so concern, thank u so much for worrying. at that time all i could think of was my own pain, and how nobody else would understand. but u girls lend me your ears, and for that, i am so grateful...
any one more person who tried so hard to reach out to me. i was really keeping alot to myself. he just kept trying to keep my chin up without pressuring me to share. he was confused with my responses, one moment warm, one moment cold. most of the time i was cold and emotionless. it was part of my numbing process to feel less pain, but apparently the pain was channeled onto him. i actually tried to express myself, but i was filled with confusion, and my disappointment was something he will never understand.
but finally, on friday, everything was cleared. all i needed was to not cencor my thoughts, just spill everything to him. sounds so simple, but i felt like a whole different person. back to the me before this whole incident started. well, not totally the same, because some things have changed. but yeah, able to feel happy again
since fri i felt lighter. yesterday i went to college to help out for Freshmen Lunch for new May '07 Psych students. Dear went to Subang to meet his friends, and then shopped in Low Yat. even when he was busy catching up with his long time friends and repairing his laptop, he didnt forget me...
The Case of the Mailbox
last night Dear sms me, asking me to check my mailbox when i wanna take time off from studying. so i quickly on my laptop, and excitedly sign in to my Yahoo account. but i didnt see any new mails from him. so i replied him, saying there's nothing in my mailbox. his reaction was funny. he was shocked! he asked me to ask if someone else took it. i thought he was kidding...someone else took it as in someone hack into my inbox? i just said...well, maybe havent reached my Yahoo account lor. then he replied...."not your Yahoo mailbox, the mailbox next to your gate!"
*big sweat*
feeling so silly, but then overwhelmed by excitement, i rushed downstairs! and wowie~!!! there was a love package in my mailbox!!!
the latest Cleo June issue, a card filled with loving messages, a magnet that says "it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are" and Shrek plaster to "patch up my wounds"oh...let me share with you the sinful indulgence i've been relying on to temporarily reduce some pain
a small portion from the big bunch of presents from Dubai-India =)
oh since im showing off all my pampering gifts, might as well show u what Darling gave me last 2 weeks too!
a new handphone pouch!
well, i have midterm tomorrow. its only MCQ, but im driven to work hard. like i havent been before this. sigh...well what to do..."my studies have slacked" and i gotta buck up. because i have set my own standard. well well, guess what? im done reading Sigmund Freud, Carl Jung, Alfred Alder, and Karen Horney twice! just left Erik Erikson! *pat self on the back* ^o^
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