well well well...many things had happened since my last post...

first thing first....DARLING IS BACK~!!!!! wooo-hooo~!!! and what else would i be busy with if not spending time with him? *evil grin*

lets see...ok i can burst all those secrets i've been keeping!

1. i said i did something proud last thursday night...well, i cooked an entire dinner for my family. on my own, with this two bare hands, with no help at all. yep, i was learning how to cook throughout the holiday, because im so motivated to cook for Darling once he's back from India. give him proper nourishment and recover his health again...

2. i participated in Estee Lauder Model Search on saturday... read on below...

Friday, the eventful 4th May

in the morning, went over to find aunty joice and eu gene. we left house only 10mins when darling called! he has touched down! OMG~!!! i cant believe he's back standing on the same state as i am! that day, the trip to KLIA was the longest journey ever...if i ever believed in super power or magical chant, i would wanna Apparate like Harry Potter to the airport! thank God Eu Gene was driving at 130 instead of 90... *secret wink to you-know-who-you-are* nyehehe...

at the airport, i would want to run all the way to arrival hall, if i was alone. but well, i managed to walk quite calmly with darling's mom and bro. and man, once at the arrival hall, i was peeping through the glass like some obsessed woman. and damn...to see Dear and Uncle Roger walking down...omg my heart could just stopped beating. the person i've been painfully longing for for 3 weeks, is finally within moments from my reach. as i watch him, i tried so hard to refrain myself from jumping all over him. i just stood there, one hand gripping the other tightly, as he hugged his bro. as he reached out the hug his mom, she pulled me in too. whopie! threesome hug! so i wasnt the last one to reach him. awww....thanks auntie! was my impatience so obvious? nyekekeke...

since then, i could not get my hands off him, except when he had to go to the gent, while i had to go to the ladies. that also, we were waiting for each other right outside the toilet entrance! we had some tea at delifrance, then drove off to Alliance Bank in KL. darling just came back from a tiring trip, but had to get to work immediately. wow, the trip was one huge success. it definitely was worth it to spend so much on visitation, bcos they came back with new business! after banking we went to Ikea. yay!!! get to eat swedish food with darling again! reminds me of how we ate together with our families last year..before we got together....

after Ikea, we went to Monash Uni cos eu gene had to meet his fren, then picked Ervin from station, then went to makan dinner. keke poor Dear and his daddy had been craving for chinese food for 3 weeks! lol. so we had claypot chicken rice. poor dear was so tired and worn out...feels so good to have him napping on my lap in the car. i can finally pamper him and shower him with love and tenderness, now that he's back home...

Saturday, 5th May...Adventure Day...

nyehehe...remember i also said i was gonna do something i've never done before? well, i joined the Estee Lauder Model Search contest in Mid Valley! i bought a rm300 voucher, which entitled me to make up by Estee Lauder, hair styling by A'Cut Above, wardrobe by Warehouse, and rm250 redemption voucher. as i posed for photoshoot with my Smokey make up and this gold sequin Warehouse dress, i experienced what models were asked to do with their entire body. all those pouty pose and sexy pose....hmmm...its gonna be a one-time experience for me, thank u very much. i mean, i feel confident and excited before and during making up, but once in front of the camera, looking at how the photographer frown and shook his head, damn...ouch!

i know there are various controversy regarding this chase for modeling fame. all those stereotype of bitchy, slutty girls who sleep around in order to get famous, and their change of attitude from humble sweet innocent girls to snobbish, high and mighty bitchy attitude...im aware of them. and was i being afraid of being labeled as one, as soon as people know i joined this competition? keke...no way im gonna let ppl's criticism stopped me from experiencing difference excitement in life! and stereotype occurs because ppl havent been thru such experience, all they do is watch and judge and label. now i can say i've a bird's eye view of this business, and i can make my own judgement more objectively i guess...

well, anyway, this contest is open to all Malaysians, and i saw all sorts of girls/women participating. i wasnt aiming to win, so i wasnt put off by those beautiful competitiors. finalists will be chosen and then compete again, with training on catwalk, etc. prizes include modeling for Estee Lauder and A'Cut Above for one year...grand prize worth rm20,000. thats what caught my eye initially. but hehehe...im fantasizing without putting my hopes into winning...so dun misjudge me as dreaming to be a model! >.< color="#339999">Vietnamese food, then we played pool! i never liked pool...always felt so embarrass at my awkward position, and even more embarrassed by my horrible clumsy "poking". but Dear was patiently teaching me, giving me advice, and never once laughed when my cuestick never touched the ball. keke...he was so cute...pretended to not see when i missed or when i hit the wrong ball, and purposely adjusting the balls to increase possibility of scoring. then again, i was very frustrated at all those unsuccessful attempts. i happily left the pool table to watch movie, happy that i dun have to feel like some loser, and also proud tht i've mastered the sexy, pooling position... ^o^

we watched Number 23...jim carrey's first serious movie. luckily i wasnt affected by mel's and oon yow's obsession to diagnose him with the "Correct psychological disorder" that would have spoilt the fun! watching movie is to relax la...not to put our psycho knowledge into full run! *evil bluek at Mel-oon*

after movie, i told Dear i've gotta be back by 8pm cos got dinner plans with uncle. oh gosh....inside me i was bursting with excitement! his mom actually planned a surprise dinner at his house, as a welcome back dinner. so in the car, i told Dear i gotta collect something from his mom for my mom. he saw many cars in front of his house, but he was still clueless. once we went inside, he was surprised to see so many neighbors! kekeke...he was blur for a few mins more, until i had to clear cut tell him it was a surprise for him! lol. it was pot-luck...his mom, my mom and aunt annie cooked. so sweet of his mom...i know she wanna cook for those 2 poor undernourished guys...

Sunday, 6th May...cleaning day!

went up to Genting with Darling and his family! he picked me in the morning, then back to his house for brunch. we stopped by in tesco ampang on our way up. sigh...what a great way to end my holiday. driving up with just me and Darling in his car. such a cool weather, such a peaceful feeling. we cleaned up his apartment in Goh Tong Jaya, and cleaning up was fun! we both we vacuuming floor, ceiling and window netting, and as usual, working with Darling is almost fun and productive. Dear had to leave his family to clean up to send me home, because he told my dad we'll be back by 7pm.

my mood instantly changed once Dear dropped me home. how i feel when im with his family and when im around my family is two conflicting, totally opposite kinda emotions. and its ironic...so ironic that i feel more accepted around his family than by my own family members...

Mon & tues...back to college... =(

just when i felt that my holiday officially just began. i had to go back to class. had classes from 9am to 5pm, but only 2 days a week. kekeke...i have more off days than working days in a week! well, this is a short semester, and im only taking 2 subjects. once tutorial start, i'll be having 2 full days (mon & tues) and half day on wednesdays. still more off days than working days! *evil grin to those who envy my schedule* =P

Wednesday....8th month anniversary

wee! its been 8 happy months! keke we met for breakfast...Dear brought breakfast. no, scratch that, Dear MADE breakfast! so schweet ok...he prepared this amazingly delicious chicken sandwich. it was his first attempt, but it tasted so good...better than MY chicken sandwich (which i actually thought was the best, until he beat me) and he was a genius...he didnt boil chicken fillet like i would have...he was very smart...he bought the chicken with 11 herbs and spices. yep! he used KFC chicken, mixed with mayonnaise and fresh lettuce! lol!

Thursday...surprise Darling! i can cook!

oh yesterday i cooked for darling! surprised him with one whole meal! i cooked lemon chicken, yau mak, and mushroom omlette for him and his family. i've gone from super noob to ok-cook! =) he was so surprised, he really was left shocked the entire day. well hun, im motivated to cook for u...especially knowing that u dun have good meals for 3weeks. i told u i'll give u pampering sessions...this is part of the package! ^_^

and i gave Dear another surprise besides my new ability to cook. keke...i got my hair cut! by his mom! in his own house! lol he was inside his room, working, while i got into position, wore my "costume" and had my octopus legs snipped off. wee~! now i've got bob! ~bop bop bop, bop to the top~ kekeke...yay ya...no more funny 2-tier hairstyle!

that night we went for dance class! yep, dear and i just enrolled in ballroom dancing last night. in uncle william's studio. his mom and dad joined too! yesterday was cha-cha...something i've learnt before...but learning with darling changed boredom into hilarious! he was shaking his hip to the extreme, jeez, attention seeking! >.<>

yeah...so that was my update since my last post. as you can see, every single day has been amazing, since Dear came back. now u know why i was complaining and whining away for the past 3 weeks. thats how much better life would have been if Dear is near me....

alright, this is a super long post. its friday now...and im feeling kinda down. something is troubling me. i dunno, maybe im just being too sensitive. sigh...im beginning to feel like a young teen craving for parents attention, but parents are too busy chasing wealth til they forgot they actually have a family. oh well, i try to tell myself its for the best. its for my future too...