bouncing back

praba's right. i dun understand what my parents go through, how can i expect them to understand me?

i dun have to accept what they're doing or how they perceive things or how they judge others, i just gotta accept them as my parents, and live with all their weaknesses. thats what jolene, the practicing counselor, tried to tell me last time too

sometimes i find it annoying that ppl always think i am taking all this too seriously. that im making too big a fuss over small matters. sometimes i wonder am i really putting myself into such depressing situation when there's really nothing to be fussing about?

i guess its all part of being a girl. we tend to ruminate over things so much, small matters are being exaggerated. and once they're exaggerated, there's no turning back. it'll just keep haunting us until we can put it down and let it go

lately i've been trying to attribute other causes besides blaming it as personal characteristics. bloody hell, i cant write things here. thank god for my personal journal =)

anyway, its father's day today. dun see the point in celebrating this day, but to all ppl who adore their fathers, happy father's day ya'll!!!

im working on several things currently:
1. stop this self-pity shit
2. stop blaming my parents
3. stand up back on my feet, more enthusiastic about life than before. i have plenty to be thankful for!

its just another stage of life. the stage where im all capable of taking care of myself, and struggling to break free from family. its another stage for my parents too, all this empty nest situation and middle ife crisis. we all will grow up and enter a new stage in life, and when we're there, its a whole new level of happiness and satisfaction again!

i aint as mature as i would like to think myself to be. sure i can think from a whole lot of perspectives when advicing others, but not when it comes to facing problem of my own. well, bear with me as i still hate myself for all this, but after self pity comes full force of overcoming limitations, all full of positivity! thats how i would also pride myself to be, and i wont give that up!